Envy

I seek liberation from the wiles of ego and treacherous fate
But this liberation itself is governed by ego's varying state
The ego wants only me to be liberated and not the World
Thus it insidiously tricks me into believing I am favored

So I constantly seek a pinnacle on which I can stand
And proselytize to the weaker masses in manner grand
They shall look upon me as a messiah on God's errand
And I shall deign to help them thus making them repent

But I am quite disturbed when I hear of other's success
Even in the spiritual plane I suffer from ego's excess
I stand on one side of the dividing line of success and failure
And seek company to ensure that my ego is not in fear

This sort of existence has led to strife and grief in my heart
I cannot hope to progress when these guests do not depart
The Ego does the twin evils of first raising the spectre of envy
And then in comparison makes me feel as if I am unworthy

The Course in Miracles is my refuge at times such as these
When I struggle with doubts within self and future insecurities
The Course teaches me that God exists everywhere without fail
And enlightenment dawns when we see the sublime in every trail

Some may take the higher road and travel through verdant vales
Others may take the lower road and fall into difficult states
But each one follows the road that is of their choice and not random
And God accompanies us at all times, even if we recognize it seldom